My family and I sat down to watch Blue Like Jazz last night.

I have contemplated the book and anticipated the release of the movie for a few years. My son and I watched it in the theatre back in the spring. Last night my wife and a couple of my family members from church came over. We ate some hotdogs, fried pickles, fried green tomatoes and chips. Then we watched the movie.

I’m not sure what they saw. We watched the same film, but I can’t expect them to see what I saw. After all I’ve been contemplating it for a few years. I suppose that someone could argue that I “got more” from it than they did based upon my familiarity with the film and Donald Miller.  I’m not sure that is fair. However, it is true that contemplation, meditation and thought add to our understanding of various things we consume our time.

I wonder sometimes if our (Christian) expectation of ourselves and others dismiss that truth. The more time we spend contemplating something the more familiar we are with it. Does our expectation to for others to “get” what we do reach a level that is irrational and unfair to place upon others? I think it is.

I like Blue Like Jazz, the book and the film. However, I don’t really “get” jazz. One of my favorite quotes from the book and film is, “Sometimes you have to watch somebody love something before you can love it yourself. It is as if they are showing you the way.” 

I have decided to develop the habit of asking myself this, “Am I allowing people to see me allow Jesus to love me?” This puts me in a place to see how Jesus is loving me so He can show me the way to love others.