I’ve been participating in a small group. The group is made up of nine people and we are studying/reading a book called The Cure by Lynch, McNichol and Thrall. The tagline and premise of the book “What if God isn’t who you think He is and neither are you?”

The book presents this crazy idea that when I let people know that I sin I can be loved more instead of less. Crazy. I know.

The Cure requires discussion of passages like:

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.” James 5:16

These discussions become skeptical. Confess my sins, to other people? It can’t really mean that….right?

I don’t know what your “church experience” is. The church and community I worship daily in is kind of well…disconnected. We meet weekly for this thing called the “worship service” but not until recently have we really began doing anything that resembles “life.” Our group meets partly in a a living room and then we move into a dining area and sit around a table…looking at one another, talking, with eye contact, laughter, smiles, sometimes even tears.

Last night as we discussed confessing sin to other people we were guarded. We all voiced in some way that it was risky to talk about. We were uncomfortable. We were…jaded…wounded…untrusting…skeptical…

The very discussion evoked walls being put up…

It is clear that there are many of us that desire closer relationships with other people that we worship with. However, we all seem to have an aversion to taking steps that will create closer relationships. It is perplexing in light of the New Testament as to how we got to this point. I read the New Testament and I see that these were imperfect people that were worshipping together and risking their lives to meet with one another.

Today we are free to meet, but we are bound by our individuality and secrecy to keep from living a life of love and expression of true grace to one another.

I am heartbroken and hopeful at the same time. I live in anticipation that God will mend this separation that has weakened our faith because our “church communities” are weak.

That explains why there are some of us seeking The Cure.